"Just finished the Escort to the Beloved chapter. I have cried for the first time since December 8, 2000—the night of the car accident that nearly took my life. I didn't cry then. I think I became an observer of my life. I can't begin to thank you for writing this book.”

  Vision Arrow provides and leads excursions and vision quests into the wilderness.
Vision Arrow provides and leads excursions and vision quests into the wilderness. Vision Arrow provides and leads excursions and vision quests into the wilderness. Vision Arrow provides and leads excursions and vision quests into the wilderness. Vision Arrow provides and leads excursions and vision quests into the wilderness.
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Trebbe Johnson's Newsletter
March 2008
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in this issue
Saying Yes With The Body
The Inner World of a Surgeon
Revamping Attraction
Book and Workshop News
Trebbe picDear Questers, Friends, and Seekers of the Beloved,

Attending the annual Wilderness Guides Council meeting in the desert of southern California at the end of February, I was delighted to run into Linda Sartor, a woman I'd met about fifteen years ago, when we were both training as vision quest guides with the School of Lost Borders. She told me about her work in Sri Lanka, and I was very moved not only by the work itself, but also by Linda's attitude toward it. A few days after I got home, my husband had arthroscopic surgery on his shoulder, and I was so impressed by his doctor that I decided I had to write about him in this newsletter. Then I got a call from a man who had read my book, The World Is a Waiting Lover, and wanted to tell me about how he had transformed his own journey with an impossible love. As I thought about each of these remarkable people, I realized that they all had something in common: each is willing to venture into a troubled place--in the world, in the body, in the heart--and to heal it in the way that only he or she is capable of. I hope these stories, and the bold, creative spirit of the people who lived them, move you as well.

To those who are receiving this newsletter for the first time... welcome! Here you'll find news of upcoming Vision Arrow events, reflections, profiles of extraordinary people, and stories of transformation that occur when we accept, in small, bold, startling ways the invitations that the world is always sending us.
 
SAYING YES WITH THE BODY
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Linda Sartor had always been a peace activist. However, the attacks of September 11 and some disturbing reactions to it, such as racism in the guise of patriotism and the president's promotion of consumerism as a response to terrorism, made her realize that she had to find a way of dedicating herself even more fully to what she believed. Because she had worked for several years as a vision quest guide, she says, "I knew the importance of following my heart. Now I was ready to say with my body, 'My life is not more precious than anyone else's.'" Recently, Linda returned from Sri Lanka, where she spent fifteen months as a member of the Nonviolent Peaceforce (NP), a non-profit organization whose international teams offer a non-violent presence in troubled areas around the world.

Since 1983, hostilities between the government of Sri Lanka and the Tamil Tigers rebel group has resulted in an estimated 64,000 deaths and the abduction of more than a million and a half people. Although a cease fire agreement had been in effect since 2002, people were still afraid. Because Linda's NP team wanted to emphasize their role as peacemakers, they strategically situated their new office on the border between a neighborhood occupied on one side by Tamils and on the other by Muslims. Part of Linda's work was to support the efforts of peace committees, which consisted of members from a mixture of ethnic groups working together to solve conflicts at the local level. Also, in an effort to lend protection to people who felt at risk, she worked with UNICEF to help enroll children in vocational schools run by churches.

In May 2002, before joining Nonviolent Peaceforce, Linda had traveled to Israel and Palestine with the International Solidarity Movement, and in February 2003, just weeks before the U.S. started bombing Iraq, she joined the Christian Peacemaker Team on a visit to that country. She says that, before going to the Middle East for the first time, she had been afraid that she would be traumatized by becoming involved in a place where violence was so pervasive. To the contrary, she discovered that she felt more alive than ever. "I see abuse and violence regularly on the news in America," she says. "When I was able to be in the way of abuse instead of simply watching it from a distance, it was very empowering." Her own goal, which she hopes to communicate to others is that, "although you can't get rid of fear, you can refuse to let it stop you from doing what you know you have to do. Fear keeps the system of domination in place."

The Non Violent Peace Force is currently seeking funding to send a team to Uganda, and Linda Sartor is eager to be a part of it.
 
THE INNER WORLD OF A SURGEON
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Last fall, my husband, Andy Gardner, fell and badly injured his rotator cuff. His search for a good doctor to repair the damage with arthroscopic surgery led him to Brian J. Sennett, head of the sports medicine department at the University of Pennsylvania Health System. On the day of the appointment, we drove down to Philadelphia from our home in rural northeastern Pennsylvania. Andy's surgery was scheduled for 12:30, but it was delayed four hours because the doctor had two emergencies. We'd been told the procedure would last two hours, but it ended up taking almost an hour longer. I was in the out-patient waiting room reading when Dr. Sennett bounded in at about 8:30 in the evening to talk to me.

He was full of enthusiasm for how well the surgery had gone, even better than he had anticipated, he told me. He talked about range of motion, repairing, reconnecting muscles. Not only did he show no trace of exhaustion after hours of work that demanded the most careful and precise attention to detail, but his pleasure in his work was obvious.

After we had talked for a while about the surgery, I mentioned how full of energy he was after what must have been a very long day. "Oh, it's so fascinating!" he said. "Once I get in there and start looking around, I just lose all track of time."

These days, when medical care is so often a brisk, impersonal business that seems to be more about technology than human beings (one doctor my husband considered for the surgery looked at the MRI before even glancing at Andy himself), it was wonderful to find an excellent doctor who loves the work he does and eagerly communicates with patients and their families. This is how the dynamic archetype of the inner Beloved works in us: by making us feel that when we enter our work, we step into a fascinating world that is just waiting for us to transform it for the better.
 
REVAMPING ATTRACTION
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Because I speak candidly in my book, The World Is a Waiting Lover: Desire and the Quest for the Beloved, of how my exploration of the roots and possibilities of desire began (a huge, impossible attraction), I often hear from other people who have been swept off their feet by Eros and plunged into longing for a romance that cannot be--and, at the same time, that they cannot ignore. Recently I spoke with a man who had had a romance with a younger woman that reawakened him sexually and creatively, yet, for many reasons could not survive as a viable partnership.

After they stopped seeing each other, he was determined to learn as much as he could from what had happened. One step he took was to make a list of all the ways in which he felt that the woman he had loved had regarded him and that he wanted to cultivate more mindfully in himself. For example:


I am a man who is decisive in taking action when I recognize

that there is something I must do.

I am a man who walks with confidence.
I am a man who gives my attention fully to whatever or whoever I am with.


Attraction, the magical allure of Eros, always has something profound to teach us if only we're willing to look at it from interesting new perspectives. I like this man's approach to transforming Falling in Love with somebody else to developing welcome new qualities in himself.

If you're interested in exploring how attraction can nourish you instead of eating you alive, come to the Roots of Attraction workshop I'm guiding with Charles Tack at the Institute of Noetic Sciences Retreat Center, Petaluma, CA June 27-29. Charley has done pioneering work about attraction for many years, and I'm very excited that we will be working together on this two-part program.
  

BOOK AND WORKSHOP NEWS
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Waiting Lover coverDo you feel Eros beckoning in your life: to a new person, a new place, a cause, a skill, a passion? I'll be offering workshops on Desire and the Quest for the Beloved at several places in the weeks to come:.


April 11-13: Morristown, NJ--Morristown Unitarian Fellowship (contact Bob Evans, BobEv1@aol.com
May 2-4: Cincinnati, OH--Moye Retreat Center, Melbourne, KY (contact Jennifer Wheatley, jh.wheatley@gmail.com)
June 8-12 (evening sessions): Washington, DC (contact Barbara Bitondo de Arène, bitondo@springpcs.com or 202-607-4906)


Louden Kiracofe, my colleague of many years, will be offering two exciting programs. In Working with Dreams and Walking in Dream-Time (held at Louden's beautiful retreat in southern Colorado at the edge of Mesa Verde) you'll work with Louden's own innovative practice of using dialogue with dream figures and solo nature walks to enter the world of the dream. A retired surgeon and urologist, Louden is also offering a Vision Quest for Physicians for the first time. This quest in southern Utah is shorter than most of our quests and is specially designed for busy doctors who often neglect their own inner lives in their commitment to heal others.

Contact Information
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phone: 570/727-4272
 
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